random~

duno duno duno...
i think this is the term i use to used since i was childhood
i really duno..
i have no idea...
huh??..
wat is dat??...
parents providing everything...
to some ppl,
to older ppl,
to ppl without everything,
they do think is good..
but it's because they provide, means they care..
in other way of saying means they still can control u!
i dun hav the basic thing i wanted the most
Freedom~
maybe not all are like me, but i am one of the thousands out there,
i know it's good to be protected, to be care, to be love
but that doesn helps anymore at wat i am now,
i'm not growing,
i'm not independent,
i dun understand the basic living and society needs
how am i going to survive if i'm still carrying on this type of situation in future?
i'm actually one of the 生在福中不知福吧！
家家有本难念的经..你看我好，我看你好
有时候现在活得没有问题不代表是好事来的
而且就算有问题也不会说出来吧
现在还有父母
以后呢？
将来呢？
完完全全是黑漆漆的
在私生活里，很多时候，我都是独自一个人面对困境
一天到晚嘻嘻哈哈的我，总让人觉得好无烦恼，其实那不是我
我只是一个很会逞强，甚至很会掩饰自己的烦恼的人而已
或许我都不想让周围的人陪我一起烦吧！多一个人烦不如少一个
在我朋友的眼中，我都是个快乐又活泼的人
内心深处的我，是这样的吗？
我是个快乐的人吗？？