Tuesday, 21 July 2009

undergoing


when one was born into this world,

they're arent alone,

they have ppls with them which are called family

but when one grows up

they learned to be alone

and when time comes

they intend to get into a relationship

lucky ppls may bump into once and for all

and then, they'll have their love ones to be with them


to share, to care, to love, and to face...

they arent alone anymore

unlucky ppls may bump into unaccepted ones

was once to be loved, was once to be shared,

was once to be cared, was once not alone

and sadly,

to be alone again

when things are to come to an end

tears falling

heart breaking

life-less

speech-less

meaning-less

nothings seems to be wonderful


... ... ...



i dun wana giv up anything in my life

especially those i treasure the most

especially those i wanted the most

especially those i cared the most

especially those i loved the most

but..


sometimes,

things doesn just come as wat we want


but i'll not giv up

never will giv up

juz for wat i wanted the most!!

Monday, 20 July 2009

sienZz


arghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm sick of my life

mentally sick

going crazzzzeeeeeeeee

i need a breakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk....

i want to be juz me and my trusted ones!! T.T

Thursday, 16 July 2009

bad dream

昨晚,我发了一个恶梦
好恐怖的梦。。。
梦里好黑暗,
我被吸血鬼。。应该说成是僵尸。。
被僵尸追来填满‘他’的肚子
当然,一个鬼和一个人,
鬼一定得到‘他’所想要的
‘他’吸了我的血后,
我,居然没有死到!
奇迹。。
这只僵尸居然会说话。。
我听见‘他’说,
怎么还有‘生’的味道。。
我当时不敢呼吸,动也不动地装死。。
装死也不容易,停止呼吸好痛苦。。xp
过后不知怎样就晕去了。。。。

duno y will have this type of dream~

Wednesday, 15 July 2009

random~

duno duno duno...
i think this is the term i use to used since i was childhood
i really duno..
i have no idea...

huh??..
wat is dat??...
parents providing everything...
to some ppl,
to older ppl,
to ppl without everything,
they do think is good..
but it's because they provide, means they care..
in other way of saying means they still can control u!
i dun hav the basic thing i wanted the most
Freedom~
maybe not all are like me, but i am one of the thousands out there,
i know it's good to be protected, to be care, to be love
but that doesn helps anymore at wat i am now,
i'm not growing,
i'm not independent,
i dun understand the basic living and society needs
how am i going to survive if i'm still carrying on this type of situation in future?
i'm actually one of the 生在福中不知福吧!
家家有本难念的经..你看我好,我看你好

有时候现在活得没有问题不代表是好事来的
而且就算有问题也不会说出来吧
现在还有父母
以后呢?
将来呢?
完完全全是黑漆漆的
在私生活里,很多时候,我都是独自一个人面对困境
一天到晚嘻嘻哈哈的我,总让人觉得好无烦恼,其实那不是我
我只是一个很会逞强,甚至很会掩饰自己的烦恼的人而已
或许我都不想让周围的人陪我一起烦吧!多一个人烦不如少一个
在我朋友的眼中,我都是个快乐又活泼的人
内心深处的我,是这样的吗?
我是个快乐的人吗??

giving it a try

i'm starting to accept everything that has change
i've no other choices just to accept everything
i've to be positive in everything
hoping everything turns out not bad
hoping everything will be alright..
sumtimes god doesn't juz give us wat we want
we'll hav to work for it
work for everything
and i am,
putting my effort in everything
but of cuz i need ur support
u're my energy
u're my soul
u're my everything~

Sunday, 5 July 2009

2009

half a year has gone..
everythings seems so different as last time already!
but i cant always stay in the back and not moving forward wert!
the most happiest moment of the year was being with u!!(the one who is important to me)
i juz hope more and more happy moments to come!
i am waiting...waiting.. and hoping!!!!

Tuesday, 16 June 2009

moutain kinbalu

Notice that rock behind the clouds??? That's the one i went up to!!!

The 1st impression i saw that mountain was OH MY GOD!
I didn aspect it was so high!! is like climbing to the heaven.
It really hurt my muscle went i got down from the mountain due to not been excercising at all. Luckily i'm not the one only, all who went up with me also suffer from terrible muscle pain!
Mine was not serious as them till have to take pills. lol
Everyone was walking like a crab after they've sucessfully got down from that life consuming mountain.
Guess wert, those crazy aunty still wana go shopping!
Having problem with walking still wana shop..sigh!
Pity those children like me force to walk too!